Sunday 5 February 2012

One week of PD

Its been a very long week.  I am so tired and cannot wait to get home.  But Breannas body is not working with us on this.  She is on new meds to help with the pain in her legs due to the nerve pinching that is going on.  She is also now on New meds to help with her anxiety.  The first night on the  meds was not to bad.  She had some pain in the begining of treatment but then slept for most of the night.  Tonight was a different story.  Dr Sharma decided to up the dose of the Anxiety meds and this just made her stoned.  It didn't really kick in until about 2 hours after taking it.   She was complaining of chest pain, hard time breathing because it hurt,  She could breathe no problem but it hurt to do so.  Now she fights with me to go to the bathroom.  She is adament she has to go  right now,  she is in the middle of a fill and I tell her to wait until the fill is done.  Ya she was not having anything to do with waiting.  So dad stepped in and said drag the machine to the bathroom, and that we did.  I carried Breanna and dad pushed the machine and made sure no wires got pulled or tugged.  We don't need more issues.  While going ot the bathroom she is very dizzy.   Once done, she is even more dizzy.  Has a hard time standing up,  I had to have dad carry her pretty much to her bed, where she fell onto and grabbed onto me with death grip because she did not like the way she was feeling.  She was so dizzy,   she could not see.  I called the nurse in a panic and told her what was going on.  She started to do some testing for stroke.  All her levels were fine, Blood pressure was ok, Heart rate was good.  She was just seeing double.  Checked her chart and the nurse realized her meds were doubled and this is the issue.  I had to calm Breanna down so I politely but quickly asked dad to leave the room. Breanna does not do good when there is more then one of us in the room fussing over her.  Once it was just me and her I got her to calm down.  She had a few meltdowns as she was scared.   She wanted to know what was going on with her head.   She was scared for herself.   I got her to calm down and she finally did and laid there relaxing.  Dad came back and sat with her until she fell asleep.  I left the room for awhile and when I came back in she was in the middle of a drain and sleeping through it.   THANK YOU UP ABOVE.  I left the room again and when I cam back both Breanna and Dad were fast asleep.   I left for the night.  Said good night to the nurses.  And now 2 hours later I am still wide awake. Now that I have this off my chest hopefully I can get some sleep.   I worry about my baby girl so much it hurts!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!MOM

1 comment:

  1. Stay strong Stef! Your baby girl is being watched over from above. I know there are times when you wonder why her? What have we done? Can I make this right? Every human goes through trials and tribulations, but it is a mom who comes through it with the skin on her back. We are tough cookies. Why. Because WE HAVE NO OTHER CHOICE. I wish I could ease your pain. I know how hard it is to watch your daughter suffer through this, and to venture into the unknown. I understand , you know my journeys all to well. I love you, and will continue to pray for you and your family. Big hugs momma. and even bigger ones for Bree!

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